April 5, 2010

  • two.

    Dear diary.

    I'm having a race against time.
    I'm sitting outside, on the campus green with Rephe.   We're sitting on a hill, surrounded by a piece of artwork that looks like a half-constructed house, a bunch of trees, and the field of lights.  It's pretty from up here.  And the fountain is running tonight.  It's lit up.  It reminds me of my freshman year.  I have such nostalgia for that year.  I can't really place why, but that year felt like a test; it felt like being pushed out of the nest, and flying on my own.  I found my own places and changed into my own feathers.  I love this school.  It's always going to be the first place that I had my own home.

    Anyway, I'm typing this on my laptop with the dorm's wifi, racing against the battery life.  It says that I have three hours, but I know this computer.  I probably have about thirty minutes.  XD.

    I just got back from watching a percussion ensemble with Rephe.  He said that I looked bored, but I wasn't.  I shut myself down to focus on the sound.  I expected for the starry one to be my favorite, but every single one that came after it struck me harder, and in a completely different way.  The war one was especially impacting, but I think that I liked appleblossom the best.  It shot my mind into a million directions.  And I appreciated the date.  Art in any form is amazing to me.  I'll run this horse dead to the ground, I love expression and perspective and the passion of it. 

    The music made me feel. <3 Thank you, darling prince.

    ...& a truck was just pulled over for having too much stuff in its bed.  Poor guy.

    I woke up to a phone call from an agent, offering to take me to look at apartments.  I have my meeting with my physician very soon, and I'm going to be seeing Kalinesti soon, too.  As always, I'm a little bit anxious and very, very excited. One of my biggest fears now is that my future with them will never come.  I love them so freaking much more than I could love any other friends ever.  Especially Dally, even though she doesn't get how beautiful she is.  DX.  She's the one that gave me the confidence to keep walking.  <3.

    I don't want to play with fate.  My prince is looking melancholy and my battery life is rapidly failing (it hasn't even been ten minutes :3)... and I've got grassy snuggly plans in mind.  It's a shame that the stars aren't brighter tonight, but at least we've got a warm spring night and yummy cafeteria food to have deep discussions over.  This is my favorite kind of night. <3